...and in your head it's worse.

Hello my poor friends,

I don't know what to tell you except that it's sometimes quite hard to restrain your voices in my head and not respond out loud to them when I'm alone: "Shut up!" or "You so stupid!" or "How can you say such horrible things?" or "You don't even know what you're talking about!" or simply "Why, WHY???" to my own questions that are running through my head.

I'm quite busy now but still don't work enough. Still in need to express myself to counteract my frustrations and feeling disorders due to "the things of life". But I don't feel that unhappy after all, only a bit tormented and sometimes melancholic, as usual.
So I'm not complaining, but still aware that something might happen, something that will turn my doubts in the certainty of having been fooled... and both aware of that since the beginning.

I now have such a "Greek tragedy feeling" my friends, that's so horrible! *sob*

But I don't feel that bad either with my self esteem, which had already got used to the thought of...
BWaaAah I'm telling too much!!!

I'll let you with this, cause you know I'm thinking too much when I start thinking.

PS: as I wrote in my "Despair and Loathing notebook":
All of this talking only represents an instantaneous state of my mind and a partial description of things,
so the impression rendered can only be subjective, even for me whose changes of mood occur quite often.

So long, my friends.